Jesus said we could move mountains. Now I know at least Marti can.
While Chandler and I were camping in the mountains last weekend, Marti moved two of them. Not the ones where we were, but the ones at home … on my desk — one on either side of the valley where I used to put my laptop. These mountains were about two feet high, full of papers and un-filed letters, insurmountable to me but apparently not to her. I had been saying I was going to take care of this for some time except that as the mountains grew bigger and bigger, they became more and more impossible for me to deal with on my own. They were so high they were getting to be unsteady. I would bring my lunch to my office on a plate and have to balance it precariously on top of one of my mountains.
There are some things in life we simply cannot handle.
This is where the 12-step program serves us all. There are, I believe, places and times for all of us when life becomes unmanageable. This is where we need help. We need to admit that and learn to ask for help.
I didn’t ask for this help. I was either too proud or too possessive to let anyone help me. I just kept saying I would take care of it while the mountains grew and became more and more impossible to me.
That’s when Marti decided to do something about it. While we were gone, she spent the better part of a day going through my office, filling up three trash bins with paper and organizing what was left into two small packets of file folders. That’s it. The mountains are gone. The enemy is defeated.
Marti did a huge favor for me. She did what I could not do, indeed, what I didn’t want to do, and in some ways didn’t want done for fear of what would be found under those mountains. But now that the mountains are gone, I’m so relieved. And I found out what I feared in all that stuff can all go into a file folder that is suddenly manageable.
No one is an island; we all need help. Learn to admit it. Humble yourself and get the help you need. It’s what the body of Christ is for. Don’t insist, like I did, on doing it yourself. It may never get done.
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference.
– Reinhold Neibuhr